I cant promise u a perfect relationship without arguments and differences. However I can promise you as long as you're trying, I'm staying.


till then....... stop making me jealous. it could really kill me.

i love you bb

we fell head over heels in love with one another. we laughed and cried together, made fun of each other, tested each other. there were times u would make me so mad, and so did i. we tested each other everyday, just to see what our limits were. but there's one thing we both always know, there is something unexplainable between us, something really special that no one else could see, not even us. we just can feel it and give credence about it. i believe no matter what happened or where life will take us, u will always be the one i went to bed dreaming of, and woke up in the mornings wanting right next to me. at the end, the only ones we wanted to be with is each other. nobody can make me feel the way u do. it's a feeling i can't never explain. u never fail to make me laugh, even if i don't have the intention to smile. u make me feel like i'm the luckiest girl of all when i'm in ur arms, the only place i feel safe.

this is for you.

i know i never been a good person to you,
never loved you the way you loved me,
never cared your sensitivity,
never understands you the way you understands me,
who always irritates you,
who always make you cry,
who always make you mad,
the things ive done,
the things ive said,
are unforgivable,
but leaving you are the only option that is not in my list,
1 day,
and when it comes,
you'll come to realize,
what i have been doing to you,
has its own reason,
has it's own explanation,
has it's own answer,
im miserable when im not with you,
when we fight,
when we're apart,
im only a human being which always makes mistakes,
repetitive mistakes,
im nobody to you,
and im nobody without you,
i love you with all my heart,
with all my strength,
with all my will,
i love you till it hurts,
makes me hard to sleep,
makes me cry,
makes me do lotsa thinking,
makes me vulnerable,
makes me indecisive,
and every each time im mad and saying stuff,
its because i love you,
and i care.

sekeping hati yang cuma ingin bercanda.

aku sekeping hati,
hati yang cuma ingin bercanda,
berhibur di kala bosan,
mengenal erti hati lain,
memahami hati lain,
tapi aku cuma sekeping hati,
sekeping hati yang berwarna merah darah,
yang pada setiap saat dan minit,
diracuni oleh pelbagai benda,
sekeping hati yang dulunya mulus,
kini menjadi hitam,
hidup hanya untuk menyusahkan hati-hati yang lain,
minumbulkan kemarahan pada hati-hati yang lain,
menghancurkan persahabatan hati,
meranapkan impian mereka,
kini,aku cumalah sekeping hati yang busuk,
hati yang memegang teguh pada kegelapan,
menepis jauh sinar keindahan,
aku cumalah sekeping hati,
yang dulunya mempunyai degupan yang berentak,
yang mana kini cuma berdegup dengan 1 degupan,
degupan yang mencari-cari,
degupan yang tidak lagi ingin dikenali,
yang tidak ingin diambil peduli,
aku cuma sekeping hati,
sekeping hati yang hanya ingin meminta maaf atas segala kesalahan,
terhadap hati yang lain,
hati yang telah dicintai,
hati yang telah dibenci,
hati yang telah membenci,
hati yang marah,
hati yang tidak ingin lagi mendengar degupan lemah hati ini,
aku cuma sekeping hati,
yang ingin kembali ke pangkuan Tuan nya,
yang ingin kan kedamaian,
yang kini inginkan keamanan,
yang inginkan kemakmuran,
aku cuma sekeping hati,
yang ingin mengundur diri,
yang ingin berhenti menyakiti,
yang hanya ingin kan cahaya keindahan,
yang inginkan semua perkara yang memang di luar pelukan,
aku cuma sekeping hati,
hati yang busuk,
yang mana sekarang aku faham mengapa tidak ada hati lain yang ingin bersama,
aku cuma sekeping hati,
yang perlukan pasangannya bersama di sisi,
sehingga degupan hati ini terhenti,
oleh karena diinginkan Tuan nya.
aku cuma sekeping hati,
yang ingin mencintai mu,
yang menginginkan mu,
yang merindui mu,
yang menyayangi mu,
meski semua itu hanyalah mimpi indah aku,
aku cuma sekeping hati,
yang cuma ingin bercanda.

for every breath i breathe,for every blood that runs to my vein,for every pain i went through for every second,for every minute,for every hour,for every day,for every weeks,for every month,for every years,for the times im happy,for the times im sad,for the times im angry,for every moment i went through after knowing you,i did it for the sake of our love and you,never in my mind that i would forget you,not think of you,or yet stop loving you with all my heart..

sayang, thanks for the support you give to me all this while when i am in my practical training.. thanks for listening to my "sweet complaints" almost every weeks, thanks for hold on with me, thanks for taking care of me when i am working even you're there, thanks for not stopping texting me,thanks for your patience when everytime i said "jap b,ada tourists" thank you soooooooooo much!

love you boo.. love you so much..

im blurrreeeddd out..

mood swings???

im acting up crazy,
im mad on little stuff,
i eat alot,
i get sick real easily,
yet im a guy.
what the heck???
TEKANAN JAWAPANNYA.

i want you..

laying in bed alone,
wishing you were here.
wanting you to hold me,
and kiss away my tears.

i still feel your arms,
wrapped around me tight.
i still feel your touch,
as you held me through the night.

the way you'd caress my hair,
then give me the softest kiss.
at times like this,
that I truly miss.

i know it'll be months,
before we'll get together.
but bear with me for a while.
we'll gonna make it.
i love you sayang.

for the times...

for the 1st time i meet you,
i had my heart locked in,
for the first time i talked to you,
i had my heart beating,
for the first time i smiled at you,
i had my feet and knees trembled,
for the first time i said i love you,
i had my feelings upside down,
for the first time i held your hand,
my hand became cold,
for the first time i kiss you,
my body becomes numb,
for the first time i cry for you,
i felt closer and closer to you,
for the first time we laughed together,
i came to my conscious,
for the first time i missed you,
i realized that im nothing without you,
for the first time for everything,
i have a reason to live,
to breathe correctly,
to think widely,
to love cautiously,
to do things thoughtfully,
because every single thing im gonna do or done reflects my emotions to you,
im never gonna do best in life,
but im sure as hell im gonna do better in life,
all because of the women i love and respect every single second,minute and hours.

p/s: i love you faten nadia.i will always do.:)

for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing
for the ending of my first begin
and for the rare and unexpected friend
for the way you're something that i never choose but at the same time something i don't wanna lose and never wanna be without ever again you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always
my accidental happily
the way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book but now if you open it up and take a look you're the beginning and the end of every chapter...